The Last Time

The last time I threw-up was in my tiny apartment in Paris.  Before that, it was in Chicago when I was watching Dances with Wolves.  The last time I drove a scooter was in Cozumel.  And the last time I made a snowman was on the running path along Lake Michigan.  But I have no idea when I last heard Donny Osmond sing Puppy Love.  I'd love to know who I was talking to the last time I stretched the curly phone cord straight and slid it under the door to talk in private at the top of the basement steps at my parents' house.  And it'd sure be nice if I could remember the last time someone called me "miss" instead of "ma'am."

I started thinking about "last times" on my run yesterday.  (Hopefully it wasn't my last.)  I usually run the first half mile uphill.  Then I think I deserve to stop to stretch on the weathered wooden fence at the top of the vineyard.  But yesterday, when I was just about to die (where the uphill road bends and I'm in a little cavern of cornfields) some bikers came up from behind.  "Ciao Bionda!"  "Che bella!"  "Guarda che passo!"  "Che brava!"  (Hey Blondie!  You're beautiful!  Look at your pace!  You're great!)  It was such a pleasant surprise that I forgot I was dying and in need of a break.  A little encouragment goes a long way.  An extra two miles to be exact.  I just kept running past the fence and started believing that I really did have a decent pace and I was great.  As for being blond and beautiful?  The blond part's true (in a certain sense), but I'm not so sure about the beautiful part.  Bella is a part of every Italian man's vocabulary.  In fact, I'm almost positive I heard a 2-year old boy say "Ciao Bella" as I ran past the other day. That one went on the list of firsts.

So, the bikers passed and I kept running and thinking about "last times".  I realized that one day I won't hear "Ciao bella" anymore.  I'll just notice that I haven't heard it for a while, but I won't be able to remember when the last time was.  We're seldom aware when things are happening that they might be happening for the last time.  Major events, yes.  They often come with fanfare and photos and friends and we're aware of the finale.  But the little things that are part of everyday life just slip away unnoticed.  Like the last time I ate SpaghettiOs, the last time I locked my bike on the stop sign in front of my old house or the last time I wore the wool MSU band coat that I bought at The Salvation Army in 1987.

I finished the run thinking there are some things that I really have done for the last time and it made me sad.  But when I got teary about the last time I'd played my piano and my last game of beach volleyball and the last time I drove a convertible under the full moon with the heat on high I realized that those are on the last time list only because I've let them be.  I just have to do them again, and then I won't have to wonder when the last time was.  

As for the last "Ciao Bella", I'm not so worried anymore.  I'd forgotten that I live in Italy now where there will never be a shortage of "Ciao Bellas."   You don't have to be young and beautiful to hear that one.  And fortunately ciao means hello and goodbye in Italian, so if I'm lucky maybe it'll be the last thing I ever hear.
  


The only time you mustn't fail is the last time you try.  Charles Kettering.