Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme to Grate the Nutmeg

I wouldn't consider the simple life all that simple.  My neighbors seem to pull it off like nothing, but for me it's a lot of work.  I suppose it's kind of like shabby chic.  Shabby doesn't take much effort to achieve.  It's just a matter of time, and all things become shabby.   But striving to look like you made no effort at all (shabby chic) takes a little extra time.


Life in a small country town in Italy follows a few of the Oxford Dictionary's definitons of simple.
--easily understood or done; presenting no difficulty
--plain, basic or uncomplicated in form, nature or design
--composed of a single element
--of very low intelligence
--basic or plain without anything extra or unnecessary



Although some are true (I won't tell you which ones), life is far from easily done and presenting no difficulty.   A simple life is a little bit like most people that have never lived one think it is...the quaint, sweet, charming part.  But one thing it isn't is simple.


I heat my country house with a wood-burning stove.  In early summer a big truck comes and drops a huge pile of wood in my yard.  Three days, 72 mosquito bites and 13 slivers later it's systematically stacked.  When winter comes you have to go out every day rain or shine to systematically restack it in the house.  You light a fire every morning and you stoke it all day.  If you're not home all day, you re-enter a cold house and rebuild the fire.  Turning up the heat seems a little simpler. 


I also heat my beach house with wood.  There's no big truck to deliver it because the house is on an island.  There's never a huge pile because the wood gets collected on the beach a little bit at a time every winter weekend.  Then it gets rolled back to the house in a metal shopping cart I found in my attic. Quaint, sweet, and charming yes.  Simple?  Not so.


And here's the dirty laundry on laundry in Italy.  It starts with a weather check.  If I wash a load now is it going to be sunny long enough for the clothes to dry outside?  Clothes are washed in a regular old American-style washer. Simple.  Then each piece is taken out of the washer, flung a couple of times to get some of the wrinkles out, and hung on a drying rack in perfect order.  The t-shirts go here, the underpants go there and the pairs of socks get paired and hung next to each other.  Next you add the clothespins for fear of the colpo d'aria (hit of air http://10leaves.blogspot.it/2013/10/living-with-bunch-of-old-wives.html) and the rack full of heavy, wet clothes is awkwardly carried outside.  When it's dry it's carried back inside and the clothespins are removed.  Then the wrinkled clothes are removed, folded and organized in a pile in the corner until ironing day (which usually comes after you've accumulated a few loads).  Italian women iron more than just pants and shirts.  I suppose some American women do, too, but I'm not one of them.  T-shirts, sheets, hankies, dish towels and tablecloths are all as smooth as silk (which is really the only thing worth handwashing and putting on the drying rack).  Passing a load from the washer to the dryer, taking it out and flinging it a few times to get the final wrinkles out seems a little simpler.


Washing lettuce isn't on my list of favorite things to do.  And washing it a thousand times?  When my farmer friends offer me fresh lettuce from their fields I refuse.  It takes at least 15 minutes to really clean it.  I know.....you have to wash lettuce from the supermarket, too, but somehow the fact that it's already been in a store makes it seem like it has a cleaner start.  The farmers' stuff is filled with the same dirt I clean from the treads of my shoes after a run through the fields.  But how green, how bio (Italian for organic) how wonderful to grow your own food.  Not for this Chicagoan. It only takes two seconds to cut off the top of a bag.


And the prep for that head of lettuce?  I'm friends with the early morning and early evening bus driver that becomes a farmer at midday.  Last summer I found him in a big field picking weeds.  Not in a little garden in his backyard.  That's doable.  (Not for me, but for many.)  Antonio was in a real field-sized field picking weeds by hand.  I stopped in shock. "Stai scherzando?" I asked.  (Are you kidding?)  He said that instead of powders and sprays, he's the weed killer.  When I asked him if he was really going to walk up and down every row of what seemed like four football fields, he asked me if I was really going to run 10 more kilometers to get home. 


That got me thinking about all of the things I do instead of SIMPLY going to IKEA.  (And I can speak with authority now because I've been to one in Italy.  Once.  It's even got guys directing traffic in the parking lot just like I imagine they do in Schaumburg.)  IKEA sells dishrags and they're only a buck.  So why do I knit my own?  Good question.  And making new candles from the remnants of old ones?  I know they don't always burn that well, but there's some strange satisfaction in watching something that I created glow.  Just like the farmers that find satisfaction in watching something that they planted grow, I suppose.  (And I must admit.  I've received IKEA candles as gifts and they make great gifts.) 


Once again I'll be celebrating Thanksgiving with a grilled cheese sandwich and tomato soup.  I've gotten over the fact that there's no Campbell's around here and I've learned how to make my own.  It's pretty simple.  And a real grilled cheese with bakery-bread instead of plastic bag-bread and three different kinds of cheese instead of the stuff you peel from the little plastic sheet is pretty good.  But I still miss pumpkin pie.  I know it can't be that hard to make a pie crust (Ritz is in the same cemetery as Campbell's) but I've been avoiding it.  Fortunately I don't have to buy a pumpkin and learn how to turn it into Libby's 100% Pure Pumpkin because a friend sent me a can last year.  The most difficult part of my Thanksgiving prep will be grating my nutmeg.  


Instead of finding a little jar of ground nutmeg at my local market I found a small cellophane envelope with two nuts and a tiny little grater.  It reminded me of the prize in a box of cereal. Grating my nutmeg will probably take as long as cooking your turkey.      


And I guess now is when I'm supposed to say that I'm thankful for the simple life, which is defined by the MacMillan Dictionary as a way of living without all the possessions and worries of modern life.  I must say, the coagulated reddish-orange mass that plops out of the Campbell's can never worried me all that much.  Speaking of which, enjoy your cranberry sauce.   

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Losing Control

For a control freak, there are times that having no control at all is just what I need.  My discomfort and panic come from not being in control when I think I should be.

Let's take a dinner party at my house.  It's impossible to remain calm and charming if the guests arrive 22 minutes early.   And when they present me with dessert that I've asked them not to bring?  Lovely hostesses graciously accept it thinking, "the more time together and the more to eat, the better."  Instead, I think, "How could you possibly come early and why would you bring something that I asked you not to bring?"  That being thought (the truth is it's actually also been said) I'm not such a lovely hostess if my rules aren't followed.

There were two times in my life when having absolutely no control gave me peace.  The first was a 6-day journey on the Trans-Siberian Express.  Making the choices before the trip were agonizing because I could control them all.  When should I leave?  How far should I go?  What kind of food should I bring?  Should I take the top bunk or the bottom one?  But the moment I boarded, the moment that I totally lost control of my life for 6 days, I was at ease.  There were no decisions to make.  I couldn't control anything.  I could only get an ice cream cone when the train made one of its three, 20-minute daily stops.  If the stops were at 6am, 2pm and 3am there was nothing to think about.  I got the cone at 2pm and it was okay.  (Not to say that I've never eaten ice cream at 6am or 3am.)      

To be polite, I followed my roommates' schedules for everything else.  I ate when they ate and I went to bed when they went to bed.  I was decisionless and it felt like a real vacation.  Being trapped on a train for 6 days meant freedom.  I had nothing to do but knit, braid the hair of the little girl that was travelling with her grandpa and play poker with the Russian soldiers in the next cabin.  When we went over a bridge, everyone got up and looked out the window.  There weren't many bridges and the guidebook didn't talk about them so I didn't have to decide which ones I wanted to see. I looked when the others looked because it was the only choice I had.

I took my watch off.  It didn't really matter what time it was.  The passengers that had boarded where I had were on my time schedule, but those that had boarded earlier or later in the journey were totally different. I think I crossed five time zones in six days.  In the Moscow time zone I'd left behind maybe I really was eating the ice cream cone at 3am.  But it didn't matter.  I was out of control and it felt good.  If only the Trans-Siberian weren't express.

My second favorite holiday lasted 45 days.  I spent it on my couch with a broken knee.  Much like being trapped on the Trans-Siberian, being trapped on the sofa meant freedom.  I couldn't control anything because the broken knee controlled me. Getting a little chubby was acceptable because it wasn't my fault.  I wasn't disappointed in myself for not running a certain amount of miles each week because I couldn't run.  It didn't mean I was lazy if I read all day, it meant that I didn't have a choice.  And all of these things felt good.

I read three books in Italian after having lived in Italy for only three months.  A miracle. Reading in Italian four years later, I lose my patience.  I can't concentrate because I keep thinking that I should be doing something more productive, so I quit.  Now that I'm back in control I miss the freedom of being confined to my sofa.

Today's tea bag quote:
  Let things come to you.
That's not so easy for a control freak.  But I'll try.
I know it shouldn't take a broken knee or a trip to Siberia to feel free. Most people read as much as they want to read when they want to read and run as far as they want to run when they want to run.  They've set no limits and created no logs.

Maybe instead of being in control and losing myself I should start losing control and being myself.